It is the new year already and pretty much anything I post here is going to sound resolution-like.
It doesn't matter what I call them, resolutions, goals, thoughts that I think while alone in the shower....it is still an attempt at a new start for the new year.
But, to be honest, I don't need a new start. I don't need small little changes to work toward a better me. I yam, who I yam (I also like sweet potatoes, by the way. Have you ever tried the Pioneer Woman's sweet potatoes? Even people who don't really like sweet potatoes, complemented them at our Christmas dinner.).
But....I CAN do better.
I can listen more and react less.
I can do more for myself and empower those around me to do for themselves.
I can see where I want to go, and I can have the faith to follow the road map to get there.
I can read more, and say less.
I can give up on the multitasking.
I can create a better definition for "having it all."
I can be more present.
I can be a better friend.
This place...this place has been my friend. This place is so pretty. I love the blank page that waits for my thoughts to flow out of my fingers. This place has created friends that I would have never had. And now I don't want to leave.
But, the truth is that sometimes, I am not a very good friend. Sometimes, I worry more about getting my own "stuff" taken care of, that I don't make time make sure my friends are taken care of. Sometimes, I read what you write, but I don't comment, because I am so busy.
Sometimes, I live so much in my head that I forget what other living there is to be done.
And, sometimes, there are things in my head, that can't be said anywhere, let alone here.
I don't need resolutions to get me where I want to go. I need a revolution.
I am not leaving. But, I am also not staying.
I will still be here (I have to keep posting photos to my Cat Lady photo album, after all), and here and here and I might still be here, but it isn't going to look the same.
My revolution isn't a quitting, it is just an overthrow of the government.
You know where you can find me.